Why me ? Don't Blame God


Before you can receive anything from God, you must find answers to questions that are keeping you from receiving. As long as questions crowned your head, there will be doubts. As long as you have doubts, your faith will be hindered.

I know from my experience on a sick bed there were questions that had to be settled before my faith could be effective. That is why i was Bedfast sixteen months from ages fifteen to seventeen.

The devil tried to tell me that God had afflicted me and punishing me for some wrongdoing in my life. I listened to this for a while, but finally said, devil, I was born with a deformed heart and internal trouble. what would be the use of God's punishing me for something I don't know about?

The devil said, you are sick because of something your parents did. The disciples thought this of a man who was blind from birth. They asked Jesus, master, who did sin, this man ,or his parents, that was born blind? ( John 9:2 )

People misquote Jesus, reply as, neither the man nor his parents sinned. He was sick just so God could heal him. That isn't what this scripture says. It says, "but that the work of God should be made manifest in him. I must work the works of him that sent me. ( John 9:3-4 )

If someone stopped reading here,he might say, he is sick just so Jesus will heal him. Here's the man, blind from birth, and God made him blind just so he could heal him? If that were true, God wouldn't be much of a God, would he?

Jesus said, i must work the works for him who sent me, he immediately did God's work by healing the man.

When the devil saw that I believed in healing,he tried to convince me that it's wasn't God's well to heal me. He said, healing is real, but it isn't God's will to heal everybody. You are one of those it isn't his will to heal.

( Many believe the lie that it isn't God's will to heal them. It's illogical to believe that God heals, and believed that he won't heal you)

All I knew was what I heard preachers and people say. Some said, your sickness is God's work. God is one doing all of it. I couldn't accept this explanation. Some said, well, maybe God didn't commission it, but he permit it for a purpose. I wasn't a happy child, I never laughed, my daddy left when I was only six. I was so weak that I couldn't defend myself from other children at school. Everybody could beat me up, even the girls.

When I tried to fight back, the extra effort cause me to faint, because my heart didn't beat right. Many times I was unconscious forty-five minutes, and once I was out for an hour and half. The school nurse told me sometimes I Woburn black and sometimes, I would be blue.

Because of my physical condition and getting pushed around,by the second grade. I was mad at everybody, I was mad at the world.

The question began.

I was born again while bedfast, but even after that, questions arose in my mind.

Why was I born this way? Is God the author of the sufferings that are in the world today? I remember asking myself: who is responsible for all of this?

Why me? I asked God?

Why was I a premature baby weighing under two pounds?

Why did I have to be afflicted all my life? Are you the one who caused me to watch as others ran and played?

Now I am bedfast. Doctors says I will die. Why me? I didn't have anything to do with it. "God " did you?

I wept, oh God, surely I don't have to die ! I don't know what it is to live yet.

I said, I always have been pushed from pillar to post. I never have know what

It is to have a family. Do I have to die?

But God and Bible has the answer. We can believe God's word and be delivered or we can doubts it if we want to and remain bound.

I am so glad I found the answer. I found it in acts 10:38. God anointed Jesus Christ of Nazareth with the Holy ghost and with power. Who went about doing good and healing all that were oppressed of the devil. For God was with him.

A new revelation.

Jesus went about doing good and healing all that were oppressed of the devil.

This verse told me satan is the oppressor...Satan caused me to be born prematurely... satan caused me to have a deformed heart..Satan caused my body to be almost totally paralysed....Satan give me an incurable blood disease.... Satan kept me bound for sixteen months on a sick bed.

But Jesus is the deliverer !

Jesus is the saviour!

Jesus is the Lifegiver !

Jesus is God manifested in the fresh !

Hallelujah ! God word is truth !

After I saw what the bible said and received my healing. I crawled out of bed and said, I will not die, I will live and someday, I will have a family.

I was only 17 years, just a boy. I had never heard healing preached.

My relatives warn me to be careful, but the bible said it, I believed it and that settled it. I told everyone I met what I was going to do. People didn't want to believe my healing. They said I have stay in bed for long,I had lost my mind.

Today i am the results of what I said in those days. I have enjoyed perfect health ever since.

God gave me a lovely wife and family, faith works. That is the reason I get happy preaching about it. I know what he has done for me.


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